“But when you ask, you must
believe and not doubt.”
Faith. It’s something all of us have. Whether we have faith in our kids that they will do the
right thing or faith they will get their chores and homework done, to faith that you will get
your to-do list done. We put faith into so many daily activities without even realizing it.
Most of us certainly have faith in God and that He exists and that he answers prayers. I’ve
always thought of my faith as pretty strong.
There are and have been (and possibly will be) times in my life when I didn’t think I was
going to make it, but it was my faith that pulled me through. I remember being 16 weeks
pregnant and my mother passing, two days later I had emergency surgery to remove a
cyst, amongst several other unforeseen circumstances. I know I made it through because
of my faith that God had a plan. Most recently however, I was really forced to step back and
take a serious look at my faith.
Anyone who knows my son Knox knows he is a boy who gets sick ALL THE TIME. He is
that kid who catches everything. I had his immune system tested. The doctor wanted to
test him for some very serious diseases and told me I would have to wait several weeks to
receive the results. I was left for days wondering. My mind filled with “what ifs.” It was as if
uncertainty had consumed my whole thought process. I kept saying have faith have faith,
but how strong was my faith?
Luckily, all came back normal. I remember throughout my weeks of waiting I was shown
signs from above that all would be ok. One day I saw a sign on the back of a car that said,
“God protects,” and another day I saw a shadow of a cross. It was those subtle reminders
that God was present and I need to “let go and let God.” I was trying to control a situation
that was out of my control.
After a couple days passed by I went to pick up my sons lab results. My heart was racing
as I drove to the doctor with Knox’s lab results sitting on my lap in an envelope. Again, the
negative thoughts filled my mind and I began planning for the worst. I should have been
at peace knowing God’s plan is always perfect and He can see our pain and worry. Bad
things are going to happen in life - everyone’s life; nobody is immune. This is where our
faith is tested. This is when our faith comes into play.
Every day we are constantly filled with uncertainty in diferent areas of our lives. Whatever
it is that you may be going through, whether it be a job loss, a sick child, a failing crop, be
still and remember that God is great and He is near. You may not be given an immediate
answer, but as you are waiting know God is watching and protecting you, always. He sends
you signs all the time, but it’s up to you to see them. A lot of times our faith is brought into
perspective on our most trying days and is constantly being tested and exercised; how
strong is yours?